hate myself...

i can't believe that i'm here to write my blog while i'm having examinations....
i m really A BIG HEAD PRAWN M BIG SOTONG.. BIG BIG BIG BLUR BLUR BLUR STUPIAK IN THE WORLD....
im so blur.... so CLUMSY...SO CARELESSSSS
i hate myself being like that everytime....
i hate it.!!!!!!!!!
now only i realised i retaking one more paper???
was that my fault or their fault who printed wrongly??
but i have to take the responsibility too... coz i didnt check properly...
oh GOD... is it a bad thing??
aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I EVER HAD IN MY LIFE...
such an important thing... how could i do wrong???
how could i??
i can't even forgive myself.....
i don't know whether it is a good thing or bad thing..
and i hate myself... for being lazy and emotional....
i always did the same mistake.. although i know it was not a right thing to do so.....
i always like that..
someone please slap me.. n punch me.. to wake me up>>.
scold me until i m awake...
n start afresh...
someone please help me......
...................................
i think im the only person who can save myself by now.........
i need some support....
i need someone .......
need someone.......
GOD BLESS...
i wanted to change...................... my bad habits... FROM NOW>...
please stay beside me...
aaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHA
I JUST WANTED TO SHOUT OUT LOUD.........
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD~

SNP

i went to snp on 9th of may 2008
hmmm ..
no comment...
feel with the heart...
i wish to keep it in my mind..
as long as i could..
if one day i forgotten..
please forgive me..

you know who i meant...

" the distance doesn't matter, it's only the first step that is difficult"
=)
thanks to you...
you are always be my lovely one...